I want to hate you but I don't

How I wish I could stop loving you.

I want this pain to stop. It's been 10 fucking years. 

My failure to let go of you is a fucking disaster. I don't deserve so much pain. All I ever did was love you with all my heart and you fucking broke it. You broke my soul. 

Why? Was it worth it? 

Do you regret it? Talk to me you fucking coward.